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Some choose to leave this place because they are tired of everything. Some Just left because it was their only way to escape. Some left with no regrets. Some still chosed to leave even though they still have many concerns. Thoughts came and go, came again, and go again. I was left hanging here alone, trying to hold myself together again just like the many times I did in the past years. I thought I could, but I realised I couldn’t. I’m struggling everyday since then. Trying to squeeze out smiles and laughter that’s making me feel so fake and disgusted. It gets worse and worse as the days passed by. I don’t know what I should and could actualy do to feel better. A lot of times I thought to myself that maybe if I let go everything and leave this place, will everything be better. Letting everything go would give myself the freedom that I wanted for so long. I feels relieved everytime I thinks about it. But also feels guilty at the same time, asking myself “Am I being selfish?”
I wished leaving could be easy.
