Although I know this is wrong

I know that every family there’s their own existing problem.
But I always get this little envious feeling whenever I see other families.
The love and care that are being given and received.
Not that I didn’t receive any, but to me these loves given to me are sometimes, or most of the times, rather hard to accept.
So I turned myself to the fictional world.
Because, I don’t get hurt as much as I do in the real world.