累. 泪.
I am feeling extremely, extremely negative lately. To the extend that, sometimes I think I’m nearing insanity. From laughing at a funny thing, I can start tearing the very next moment. This is happening quite frequently. This is not all because of fandom. But more about living, about life. I laugh, I smile but only I myself knows that I’m actually breaking apart from within. I’m afraid to stay at home, facing all the things repeatedly. Doubting, sarcasm, being looked down at, etc. It’s like a mental torture everyday. I’m suffocating, trying to fight for my breathe amongst everything.
I can’t.
我快要止息了.
